Food wars

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I saw a rerun of an episode of a talk show the other day with a woman talking about her weight loss surgery and her new life. She mentioned that she always would have a BK Double Whopper with Cheese. Both, the woman and the host "mmmmed" at the thought. It was then I thought about how none of these things looks good to me anymore. I was never really a BK fan, but a bucket of KFC often looked quite scrumptious after a long day. Cheesecake and ice cream would melt my heart! I think that feeling dissipated in the "food is not your friend" part of the SY program. Somehow, those loving thoughts make absolutely no sense after that. Those foods became as desirable to me as a bottle of baby milk. The concept that food is not my friend has utterly removed that aspect of my battle with food and I love it. That is the beauty of this program.
I always felt that eating healthy was quite exotic. All the combinations of vegetables, the different ways to prepare chicken, oh, lovely hot soups. So many things to choose from. So why did I keep eating the same crap over and over? I mean, think about it. We do not even eat different crap; it is the same chocolate bar, the same fried chicken, the same pastries. Man, there is a whole world of good healthy stuff out there, you will never be bored! That is why I knew something else was wrong. As a person that NEVER ate when I was upset, emotional eating was definitely NOT my problem. Truth is though; I did not know what was. Why was I always having this battle within me? I want to eat a salad, but I cave and get KFC. I want to eat some soup at night but I'll just settle for a peanut butter sandwich (or two). Why couldn't I treat myself to a lovely healthy menu instead of eating a burger I did not really care for anyway?
So here is what I learnt. I honestly did not think I was worth the trouble. Sadly, because I did not care much about myself. It's even harder to care about anybody else either. Yes, I understand now why overweight parents have overweight children. If you do not care enough about yourself not to bring the unhealthy food in the house, no matter how hard you try, it will get into your children. The SY program helped me see that girl that has been hurt by unkind words and who has been hiding behind a lonely façade. I met myself. And I had to apologize too. Because I had been the biggest culprit of all, hurting myself, saying unkind things to myself, ignoring myself and not taking care of myself. Telling myself, that I was not even worth more than a bucket of fried chicken. Sad eh? Yeah, I cried too, quite a bit when that thought hit me. My husband was a little disturbed but he understood. So for those of you reading the book, or doing the program, commit to it. There is not only weight loss around the corner but peace of mind and what is better than that?